Day One

Jan 24, 2010

As requested by my boyfriend, counselor, and doctor; I’ve started a blog. Mainly because they say that I need to open up and talk more about how I feel. Whereas, no one would probably read this, I’m inclined to try and hopefully get some of my stress and depression off of myself.

To start off, I guess I’ll tell you a little about myself; but not enough that I’ll have a stalker or an identity thief on my hand (which seems to happen even though there is little information there, go figure.)

Lady Shirahime is my screen name. Shirahime stands for ‘White princess’ in Japanese, white meaning ‘pure like the snow’ and is not a racist thing. My real name is Krysta. I was named after the main character in a cartoon movie called ‘Fern Gully: The Last Forest.’

I’m still in high school, but I’m smart; so smart in fact, that I’ve just been offered the chance to graduate a year earlier than everybody else in my class. So please, don’t read this and act like I’m naïve, and I don’t know the ways of the world. Because I do.

I take classes online. It’s fun, and better than going to public schools, namely because online courses teach you more in a year than you’ll learn the four years of high school at a public school. Also, there’s a lot less drama, which is a huge weight off my shoulders.

I take AP College courses in English. Which is the same as saying I’m already in college, and I’m taking the AP course in that school.

I don’t deal well with people. Some would call me ‘anti-social’ but it’s more like I don’t know how to interact around people. I’m not shy though, I just don’t know what to say. I was always taught to never speak unless spoken to. When I did speak, I would always be reprimanded. Eventually I learned to just stop talking.

Apparently, according to the three listed people above, in the first paragraph, this is unhealthy, and this is damaging to my being. (Thus… this)

Anyway… back to the topic at hand. I draw manga, I write stories, I cook, and I’m on a puppet team. I don’t have very many friends though. One could say I had many friends, but I just know people… I’m not close to a lot of them. I don’t know how to be.

Today was an off day anyway. I got in trouble all day today. Sometimes, I think I just get yelled at for being alive; and I don’t know why I get yelled at. I have and do grow up in an abusive home. At least that is what people have told me. To me that is natural.

I don’t know what else to say. After all… this is just the first day. Where do I begin? Everybody has to start somewhere though, right?

Mood: Numb
Quote of the day: “Action and reaction, ebb and flow, trial and error, change - this is the rhythm of living. Out of our over-confidence, fear; out of our fear, clearer vision, fresh hope. And out of hope, progress.” By- Bruce Barton
Song of the Day: “Nobody’s Home- Avril Lavigne”

I’ll probably add more productive stuff to this in later blogs.